Forgive me, lover.
I noticed the battle scars on my weary skin
and took time to heal them
covering them with self-salve
and sewing them up with my writers needle
I wallowed in a muddled puddle
of sorrow and shame
I cauterized the pain with far too much whiskey,
spent late nights at the bathroom sink
burning away all the evidence of the lost one.
and I came through the other-side
with a smile as bright as the stars
and laughter in my spirit
once more
I embraced the world with open and
kind arms.
Chasing down everything
that made me feel alive and free.
And I found you lover.
We tumbled into something
so sincere and true.
That I forgot.
Please forgive me, lover.
I thought the rage was gone,
quenched by the weight of familiar
love.
How could I have known that the pain
wedged itself next to my beating heart
like an arrowhead?
Sealed in by my cured cicatrices.
That it would again be inflamed
by my rational fears.
When I become stony and benumbed
to the ardor of your affections.
It is not you, dear lover.
Not you, whom I spurn.
But the memory of the lost one
who blemished my soul.